Decisions, Decisions.

I’m confused by what I want... is it possible that my demonic heart wants Jacob? Is it possible that it might want Kenji? What is it that makes me so attached to Kenji anyway? Is it because of all the shit we've been through? Or is it because he is the only thing that happens to be constant in my life... he is still my brother and I love him...I really do. I just don’t know if I can love him at this point. Jacob makes me feel good about myself. My dad seems to like him ok too. I really don’t know what to do... I just want to be loved and give love...that’s not wrong is it?