That morning thought that lasts

I can't help but do this.. I can't help but want to feel alive and awake. I don't want to be a zombie. A lost soul in the dark always craving for something more. I wonder why my life has ended in this way and why I have to continue living it. Im scare of myself you know? I'm scare of the people around me and where this life leads and honestly I think it is my fear that is keeping me alive. I crave for people I shouldn't. I crave for danger and safety and that's why I can't run to you. I can't go near you. If I do I will collapse. If I go near you, you win and then what? I'm left like a rotten rat on the dirty side street next to burned out ciggerates. I don't know what to do with myself. So ill keep on searching..searching for the meaning of my existence. In the meantime I choose to take care of those I can...and if that means staying very...very far apart from the people I love then so be it.

Attention Readers/Bloggers!

ATTENTION TO EVERYONE READING THIS BLOG!!

I have had an incredibly long writers block so if you guys have any suggestions or want me to touch upon any subjects please comment below or if you wish it to be anonymous you can always email me at shivertk@gmail.com

I also will be creating a new blog soon. It will be coming out around summer time so stay tuned :)

Thank you!!

~Takara K.