That morning thought that lasts

I can't help but do this.. I can't help but want to feel alive and awake. I don't want to be a zombie. A lost soul in the dark always craving for something more. I wonder why my life has ended in this way and why I have to continue living it. Im scare of myself you know? I'm scare of the people around me and where this life leads and honestly I think it is my fear that is keeping me alive. I crave for people I shouldn't. I crave for danger and safety and that's why I can't run to you. I can't go near you. If I do I will collapse. If I go near you, you win and then what? I'm left like a rotten rat on the dirty side street next to burned out ciggerates. I don't know what to do with myself. So ill keep on searching..searching for the meaning of my existence. In the meantime I choose to take care of those I can...and if that means staying very...very far apart from the people I love then so be it.

Attention Readers/Bloggers!

ATTENTION TO EVERYONE READING THIS BLOG!!

I have had an incredibly long writers block so if you guys have any suggestions or want me to touch upon any subjects please comment below or if you wish it to be anonymous you can always email me at shivertk@gmail.com

I also will be creating a new blog soon. It will be coming out around summer time so stay tuned :)

Thank you!!

~Takara K.

Cute Central.

Decisions, Decisions.

I’m confused by what I want... is it possible that my demonic heart wants Jacob? Is it possible that it might want Kenji? What is it that makes me so attached to Kenji anyway? Is it because of all the shit we've been through? Or is it because he is the only thing that happens to be constant in my life... he is still my brother and I love him...I really do. I just don’t know if I can love him at this point. Jacob makes me feel good about myself. My dad seems to like him ok too. I really don’t know what to do... I just want to be loved and give love...that’s not wrong is it?

Aquamarine throwback.

So if you haven't seen this movie...just wow...but there is a scene where the main character, who also happens to be a mermaid, talks about her nails. Random perhaps, but it got me thinking about how awesome it would be if we all had that. You see, her nails change color naturally according to her mood. Much like those mood rings you'd find at a carnival or festival. Let's say you are happy and your nails turn purple...or how about when you are angry it turns into an auburn color. I guess in a way nail salons would be out of business...oops..

Cows....

 I really wish cows could actually look like this. I feel like we confuse children in a way...no we decieve them into thinking cows actually look this cute and when they see them in person it's like the world has brought us this horribly ugly black and white beast...deception....utter deception.

WARNING!! DO NOT BE ALARMED BY THE FOLLOWING PHOTO. THIS IS PART OF LIFE.  

Into your arms - The Maine

There is nothing more beautiful then laying in the arms of someone who truly cares about you. I am not talking about them caring about your beauty and whether you’re crying or not. I’m talking about those moments that they randomly hug you or pull you close just because. I’m talking about those moments when they don’t want you to let go. You know, those moments when they breathe in your scent and kiss your neck gently while you drift into a deep sleep. I’m talking about those moments when you wake up in the arms of the one you love and realize you would rather stay there then go anywhere else.  If you have this, cherish it. Don’t let go of it. Don’t run from it. Simply smile, whisper a thank you, and fall back to sleep in his or her arms.