Hurricane by 30 Second to Mars

Hurricane by 30 Seconds to Mars Lyrics:

 

No matter how many times that you told me you wanted to leave No matter how many breaths that you took you still couldn't breathe No matter how many nights that you'd lie wide awake to the sound of the pulsing rain Where did you go Where did you go Where did you go
As the days go by the night's on fire
Tell me would you kill to save a life Tell me would you kill to prove you're right Crash crash Burn let it all burn This hurricane's chasing us all underground
No matter how many deaths that I die I will never forget No matter how many lies I live I will never regret There is a fire inside of this heart and a riot about to explode into flames Where is your God Where is your God Where is your God
Do you really want Do you really want me Do you really want me dead or alive To torture for my sins Do you really want Do you really want me Do you really want me dead or alive To live a lie [ From: Tell me would you kill to save a life Tell me would you kill to prove you're right Crash crash Burn let it all burn This hurricane's chasing us all underground
The promises we made were not enough The prayers that we had prayed were like a drug The secrets that we sold were never known The love we had the love we had We had to let it go
Tell me would you kill to save a life Tell me would you kill to prove you're right Crash crash Burn let it all burn This hurricane's chasing us all underground
This hurricane This hurricane This hurricane
Do you really want Do you really want me Do you really want me dead or alive To torture for my sins Do you really want Do you really want me Do you really want me dead or alive To live a lie

Enough said.

Attention Girls!

Girls can be so damn fiesty. Sometimes I consider this sexy, but other time like now its gotta be the most annoying thing ever. So if you read my past posts you'll realize my love life sucks to the core. Well let's just say it ain't changing anytime soon. Girl after girl be trying to control my man and get him in their pants and it's like dayum girl you thirsty and fo' what? You know he taken. So back off my man dammit.

Ok i'm sorry guys... My ghetto side came out a bit. I guess i'm just annoyed cause no respects the point of relationships and people who do are barely there in quantity. I just wanna be happy, but how can I be happy if people dont let you be with the one you love?

Damn jealousy is another thing I've had to deal with while being with his guy. The sad part is that it's not even us being jealous. It's the people around us. Drama, drama, DRAMA! I hate it with such a strong passion, it's just a huge frustration and headache that i dont wanna deal with.

Boundaries ladies. Learn them. Live them. Don't ignore them.

This Past Weekend

i did it again...i thought that with time i wouldnt have to or feel the need to do it. but i did... im feeling incredibly useless and powerless now...and you know whats the worst part? i liked it...i missed it... i wanted it more than anything. i mean..i tried so hard to avoid it... tried to distract my mind, tried focusing on others, i ran out of the house a couple times, i even took late night showers and baths and yet theres no way i can escape its calling...

it feels so good.. seeing it touch my skin...it smells amazing... its intoxicating... almost as intoxicating as my ex... heh.. its funny...he was my drug...i wanted him all the time... even when i hated some of the stuff he did or got upset with him or by him...i still wanted him...more than anything... now its lke this cold slim nd sharp thing has taken his place...in some twisted way...im happy it is. ive wanted to let him go for the longest time... and even though i still love him and crave him every second of the day...for the moment that my skin splits its like i dont feel that need...that want...that love.

ive experimented too.. no not drugs haha. but ive tried different parts of my body... its almost as delicious as my forearms but its like it brings more ecstacy to the moment. my sides are a bit scratched up....not as bad as my forearms but the second i felt it...the way it slid about my waistline...the icy shiver it brought to my chest....to be honest.. i moaned a little..

as i heard the echo of my moan...my memories started to flow back.. the happier ones to be exact... i was lying on my back... the love of my life was resting beside me and it was the middle of winter.. we had just finished playing and i was looking up at the stars; thanking each one for allowing me to feel that way.

just as quickly as that memory came it left... after a couple seconds i realized my tears were soaking my cheeks.. could i really be crying at a moment like this? have i gone insane? i just cut myself! i just pressed a knife into my skin! and im crying because i miss the one boy that made my world worth while? really?!

i sliced my skin in a couple more times, each time let my tears slow and brought me back to the present. my anger simmered down and i realized the water was mixed with a soft red. i stared at it for a bit... my mothers face appeared in front of me and i quickly held my nose and push my head back into the water. i stayed under for what seemed forever.

i felt calm... my hair felt soft against my cheeks and whiped around as i continuously pressed my head furthur and furthur into the bottom of the tub. i didnt want to breathe...i didnt want to take on the world... i liked being by myself...feeling like no one could touch me... like the water was infinite.. like the elements were watching over me... after awhile i needed oxygen... as annoying as it was i let my body rise up along with my head and it was over... it was all over for those few moments and i felt good...i felt like i could sleep again...i could finally sleep without the thought of him.

Thoughts. Fucking Thoughts.

thoughts...what are thoughts but mere suggestions in your mind.

so what if you keep them bottled inside?

they will only turn into a rhyme.

so use it on the next one

see if she will care for

a little mess on the floor

or maybe having her eyes stare at the bed board.

yea.you might not have meant to

but u sure made me feel like a fool

for trusting someone like you

and now my body feels overused.

but thats alright isnt it?

as long as i pleased your body nd shit.

if i stop that from happening to another.

maybe it was worth biting my tongue a little bit longer.

too bad i wasnt a little bit more faded.

cuz now i got illusions when i sleep that dont seem to b endin

now ill give it a rest

you have failed my test

took advantage of the maiden

now she lookin for her heaven

while she wishes u the best

nd hopes this doesnt repeat for the next.

Remember my words

they may just be chords.

but listen to the message

maybe you can salvage

the last of humanity

with the touch of sincerety and prosperity.